The Worst Week Of My Life.... :'(

I have been putting up on this update for awhile now (as if I didn't update wouldn't make this all true) but this week we lost a few very important members to our little herd...

Swafford's Sunny Totally Wicked came down with severe hyperthemia. And even after 2 days at the Vet's office he was too sick for them to save. RIP little buddy, you are very sorely missed.
1-13-09 to 2-5-11


Then after a very tramatic delivery for K&J Pygmies Isabella where neither of kids survived she suffered severe nerve damage, leaving her paralyzed. After the help of our wonderful Vets in Bellevue, babies and momma couldn't be saved :'(

For those whom don't know, Isabella was one of the first goats I've ever known and she was one of the prettiest caramel does I'd ever seen and was a very sweet and a VERY very special doe to me. It killed me to know that she'd passed away after a short 2 day fight.

I'm finding it very hard to keep going with my goats. Thinking about selling out? I guess it may be for the best if I could find good homes for the majority of my goaties. I only have 3 of the original 5 of my original herd. Kookie, Andy, and Riley.
I am not making this decision in vain or heartache, although they do affect it. I just want to do what's best for my goats and maybe now is not the time or place for me to manage my herd. Maybe it's not ment to be. Maybe I'll just start over after I complete Vet school and live on a farm of my own....

Maybe I just need guidance? Or maybe I'm just confused...

Either way, RIP my Sweet Isabella. You are over the rainbow bridge with your babies and buddies Buster Bar and Crystal now, waiting for me someday. <3
1-11-07 to 2-9-11

I will miss you very much Bella and I will never forget you...
And Wicked, I'm not even sure I can begin with the guilt I feel for loosing you. And Isabella... :'( I love you both very much.

Tara